And just like that, my heart is torned into pieces of itty bitty paper left on the floor waiting to slowly get picked up and somehow get taped back together.

Hoping and praying to heal—most importantly be able to move on and have no thought of you. No If’s, but’s, or what could of beens.

No matter how broken or disappointed I am, there is no ounce of hatred towards you. Just many I miss you’s and wishful thoughts you’d come back.

Just come back…

There are things in life that I can’t control.
There are things in life that may seem unfair and unjust.
There are things in life that happen for a reason.

But throughout all these things that happen, I trust, believe, & have faith in the lord-Jesus Christ himself.

& so lord, I thank you.

Since last night, I’ve been feeling “meh”. Not even sure how to even describe this emotion. I just feel so emotionally drained, tired from work, & uninspired. I just feel like life is passing me by and I don’t know what to feel or do. Not even sure, there is someone willing to listen to me or even understand me. I’m a hot mess. All I feel like doing is crawling into a ball and hide from the world. Just wanna get away and recollect myself. Maybe to refocus? Maybe to get reinspired? Maybe to recharge?

Idek.